A point I've always tried to make to myself is that I am part of a community of human beings which survive by relying on each other. By helping each other. I've had the above word thrown at me several times, and I sincerely would love to actually be able to believe it.

Its not important wether I do or not. What is more important is that my thoughts are going to waste.

The world is such a neo-capitalistic lard-soup-paste that indigeneous Dayaks in the middle of Borneo are hurt everyday by this over-Borg-ian need of Machinima-Economica to rule so completely all the way to our very breath-processes. You either become a screw of Capitalism™, or you get screwed.

I'm screwed™.

I don't have marketable skills. I don't have a college degree. I don't have a million Dollar$. I can't follow a system through. All because my mind (and therefore essentially I) love to wonder.

But I can't give up. At least not until the 20th.

BIG BOY! BIG BOY! BIG BOY! i GOtta BE a BIG BOY! BIG BOY! BIG BOY!