But how did the interview go, you ask?

Well, I think it went relatively smoothly. Some tests, an essay and a Powerpoint slide. They'll let me know next week if I go to the next stage. A psychotest and an English test. We'll see...


Oh and I lost my cell phone yesterday, so my Mentari number is currently dead. On the day of the interview. Just so you know. (and no I don't wanna talk about it yet; I get homicidal tendencies just remembering the moment)

Posted at 7:00:20 am by ferdikom98
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BP called

Originally written April 2nd, 2007; two days before the interview. Beware that this blogpost is uncensored; there are statements here that shouldn't be said. But IMHO if the Sacred Bridge is to be honest about its moral mission then nothing should be hidden...

And so here I am. Tommorow I go to an interview with BP Indonesia. I've already stated that I'm not gonna leave the Sacred Bridge until the end of May, and even then I need certainty by the beginning of May. Both to my Boss, and now to BP.

Leaving the Sacred Bridge feels like a cop out. Like I've given up without even fighting. I'm even entertaining the thought of letting BP pass.

It wasn't quite expected, the call yesterday from Anggi of BP Indonesia. After three months I thought they'd already selected another candidate. I mean, fluent English writers are a dime a dozen nowadays. I'm sure I'm not the only one. I can't possibly be the best. But perhaps I am the best that's still looking for a pay of more than minimum wage.

I've told everyone at the office of the interview. Haven't told my boss yet, though. I'm planning on telling him after the interview.

I sure do hope the interview goes well...


I'm typing this using the company laptop. 12:53 PM 4/3/2007. At Tedz's former desk, behind Yo_Ieka's former desk. I'm the only one left in this room.

There's the ASEAN thing. A big opportunity. I've gotta follow it up, contact the Program Head, clear up some schedules, etc. We could make a deep positive impact throughout South East Asia, provided we plan thoroughly and execute carefully. A big thanks to Dipogila; we're commited to bringing your org along in this ride.

The website is not doing well. We've got domain name problems. Apparently our old ISP still hold legal rights over it. They asked US$160 for it. We were even planning to pay them that much, provided that we have in writing that our domain would be ours after that. They won't even give us that.

Rhythm Salad©[1] is... in limbo. Our various plans are just that, plans. And not an executable one at that. Not even in writing. Logically it should be like, we should make events like the one at Tornado, just local musicians holding a jam session and having fun, exploring the Indonesian identity through music.

At least the two DVDs are on schedule. Cutting it close, but still on schedule. Those two DVDs are our current source of income. It feels like living on edge here... like the org could crumble at any time if we don't do something. But I digress; I have absolutely no idea how the SBF is doing financially.


As far as I can tell, the hard logic in my tale is this: my potential income from either the SBF or BP is at the very least comparable, if we take into account the fact that income through budget bonus could potentially be large, and said potential is very real. But monthly income at the SBF is pegged at bare daily needs, with little to no possibility of making any savings. While income from BP is pegged at a relatively larger monthly nominal, with a much better chance of setting aside some mothly savings. A steady, predictable income.

If we're just looking at monthly salaries, BP wins hands down. But if we're talking potential income, with bonus considerations, SBF could be much bigger. But BP is more predictable. More stable. More pragmatic.

But that's just talking about income. We haven't talked about mission yet.


Originally posted as a comment to Mimi Hitam:

Life is not worth living if you're not alive...

If you're not actually living it, breathing it, dedicating your heart to the fullest in its purpose.

Your life is as precious as you want it to be. Noone else can tell you how much.


[1]Rhythm Salad is copyright ©2006-2007 Sacred Bridge Foundation. Just so you know.

Posted at 6:59:23 am by ferdikom98
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CIDRAP >> Thailand joins Indonesia in withholding H5N1 strains

Mar 22, 2007 (CIDRAP News) — Thailand today announced that it was joining Indonesia's boycott on sharing its H5N1 avian flu virus samples with vaccine developers and the international health community.

CIDRAP >> Thailand joins Indonesia in withholding H5N1 strains

More from Google News, Agoravox

Posted at 5:43:36 am by ferdikom98
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SBF: Problem Id

The things that make me unsuitable for SBF:

  • Too lazy
  • Too indecisive
  • Too unsystematic

They don't stop me from working at the SBF though. At least not yet.

And now that I've done Problem Identification, I can start working on Proposed Solutions. :p

Posted at 2:51:32 am by ferdikom98
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my life without me (a spontaneous oral review)

So like I was just finished watching "My Life Without Me" which had been playing in Metro TV, and my brother asked, "was the film good?" He had been browsing the web upstairs (from this very computer that I am now typing on).

I answered, something to the effect of, "yes, it was very good. Its about this... girl, who is living in a... disadvantageous economic situation, with two kids and a husband, and she's living in a trailer park and she is, like dying from cancer. And so she like, makes these tapes that she records, like for example for her two baby girls that she intends to give to them, or have her doctor give them to her girls, one for each birthday. She makes these tapes for everyone around her. Her family. And close friends. She doesn't tell them that she's dying and can't be cured.

"She is like, not exactly regretting that she is going to die real soon, but she's not positive and pretending to be this "superwoman" that is strong and is going to get through all this all right. Its not like she would not love to be able to live longer, to see her girls grow up, to see her Mom happy, and her husband find a better job, too. But she refuses to have the last moments of her life be a total drag, too. She doesn't want to be a burden, an excessive burden, on her family either since she can imagine the costs of her medication, the hospitalization, all those things that, as she sees it, can't possibly cure her either and would just make her family miserable.

"The film makes... the film's tone and manner is what you'd call "real life", in that all shot was taken as though hand held (and I really suspect that they actually were), so like they were always moving just ever so slightly and is tilted just so very slightly, as though the camera wobles as like in a home made video. And the dialogue, I mean they were... at least written as though they were spontaneous though they were probably written beforehand, but they really seem spontaneous and you can actually believe that these characters would speak just like that if you would encounter them in these situations in real life. It just makes the movie seem more... honestly real and alive.

"And so yeah, I guess I really liked the movie."

Although I didn't actually saw it from the beggining. For those familiar with the movie, I actually began watching it from the part when Anne was in the night club with the Hairdresser (I was actually going downstairs intending to get a glass of cold water down my throat; my sister was watching), when I saw a glimpse of the movie and sat down and didn't get off my chair until a few moments ago when I finished talking to my brother, went upstairs and started typing this blog post.

I'm gonna buy the DVD as soon as I have bought my new DVD writer.


Its a nice movie that I'm glad to watch considering the situation that I'm in, since it kinda has these neat 'lessons' about life, love, death, family n' stuffs and is just... uplifting in a non-mushy way and it....

But I'm still in the situation I'm in. (See the post below).

Posted at 10:59:04 pm by ferdikom98
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btw sbf

Btw I'm thinking of quitting the Sacred Bridge; but the backup plan I thought I had in place is not fully functional. I have informed the Authoritiesy, and I have till Monday to come up with a solution.

A rough sitrep analysis by said Authority and me grounds the underlying problem upon the Nias Culture's lack of loyalty.

Authority assumes that said lack of loyalty is inherent, though IMHO it is only a recent, modern development (this opinion I kept to myself, since I have no verifiable data to support it).

I wish I could stay without impunity; I appreciate the Bridge's idealistic dreams. I wish my backup plan would give me a clue; you offer me 200% pay to betray my loyalty, yet you leave me floating on a sea of....



(I wonder, how many people on Earth can parse this particular blog post?)

(yelling 'help!' at Englishmen in Swahili)

Posted at 11:11:20 am by ferdikom98
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I want an A-bike.

This probably has something to do with my current interest in Bike-to-Work. Though the A-Bike is probably not an ideal vehicle for Bike-to-Work, at least not in urban Jakarta

Hat tip to Stay Free! Daily. Which is closing down its treeware-operation, btw.

Posted at 9:52:04 am by ferdikom98
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Epoq - Lepidoptera

cross-posted to Lemi4 on FLOSS

For fans of the Ambient 'category' of 'electronica' (with full respect to the Ambient Community at large, for I am a self-confessed outsider/'poser' if you will)

Have you ever imagined physically soft-sounding music that can physicaly hit you through sheer tempo dynamics, as how a typical System Of A Down song can physicaly hit you through sheer volume dynamics? Check out Epoq's "Lepidoptera," an Ambient song as genuinely ambient as an outsider can judge a song to be Ambient, which hits you with an uppercut to the abdomen on your first listen with a beat so mesmerisingly... dizzying (which is the best word I can think of right now).

(Anybody out there knows at what time its actually composed? 9/16? 17/22? 22/7? Anybody? Maybe Epoq himself?) (Or it may just be that I'm too dumb musically to get the tempo (sigh))

Discovery courtesy of the Kahvi Collective, through the Vorbis.com music samples archive.

Fair Warning: this song is encoded in Ogg Vorbis, visit Vorbis.com for details on how to enable Ogg playback on your computer, wether Windows, OS X, or UNIX/Linux based.

In a nutshell (a very crushed and disfigured nutshell, I might add), if you use Windows, to listen to .Ogg audio files you install the 800kb Ogg Codecs for Windows, courtesy of Illiminable.

Or, you can just use Winamp :o)

Posted at 1:54:04 am by ferdikom98
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In Search of the Indonesian Writer('s Identity)

Roliflex aka. Tenyom aka. Avie ponders the future of Indonesian literature now that the great Pramoedya Ananta Toer has passed, and fears that the baton will not be passed to a female. Unless some things change first....

While the rest of the nation is disoriented, the great Indonesian writer must push further against the dark. Like Pram who knew exactly what his Indonesia was (whether real or imaginary), she has to re-invent Indonesia in herself. What is Indonesia, after all, if not fiction?

That a darkness must be pushed against I wholeheartedly agree.

We at the Sacred Bridge Foundation have always thought that culturally speaking, Indonesia's biggest problem as a culture is one of identity. Personally speaking, despite Indonesia being an entity forced into being by the forces of historical necessity, it does not mean that we cannot look deep within ourselves (both as an individual and as a complete Indonesian community) to solidly define who we are as a people.

Avie's essay is a most highly recommended read, at least if you have even a merely slight interest in contemporary Indonesian literature.

In Search of the Indonesian Writer by Tenyom

Posted at 9:40:50 pm by ferdikom98
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the sacred bridge message

I want to use the Internet to spread the Sacred Bridge message.


What is the Sacred Bridge message? So far what I've learned is that Indonesia has and identity of its own, and that we've got to do something to enrich this identity; that we as a culture cannot afford to keep borrowing from other nations and keep wondering off in a hundred different directions never really going anywhere. I'm sure its deeper than this, and I am determined to learn. I can't begin to spread the message until I understand the message itself.

I've got to actually become a part of Sacred Bridge. Know everyone involved with Sacred Bridge, both in the office and those "bounded solely by moral obligation" (ie. our team of experts).

As for spreading the message, I was kinda thinking of getting the blogging world talking about Sacred Bridge. But building actuall real-life human relations is more important. Both should be inter-relating.


And that's what I've got so far.

(and I'm posting this as is knowing full well this essay could be better since I'm not gonna make this essay any better in the little Internet time I have and its more important to get these thoughts to germinate somewhere first than to make them coherent, since coherency comes with time)

Posted at 8:11:55 am by ferdikom98
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I don't write intellectually. I write expressively. I don't claim to be accurate, fair or thorough. I don't wanna get stuck on certain topics. Though I sometimes do. But not that often. I'd like to expand. I wanna write more poems. But I'll only upload them if they're good. I only rant about my life's hardships if it will rescue just a little bit of my sanity. I'm saner than I make myself out to be, though.

If I am an OS kernel, and I just had a kernel dump, I'd imagine that the text in this blog is what it would more or less look like.

There. Do you get it?


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