12/24/2004
remembering Columbine

There is a certain something that I felt my audience should be able to at least infer by reading the texts in my blog; that I don't conform too well to my social surroundings and systems, that I feel my education system cheats me, that there should be more important things in life other than grades, degrees, and pieces of paper called 'diplomas.'

On a recent trip to Kuro5hin's culture section, I discovered a little piece about an alternative teaching method called Programmed Instructions. The main focus of the article is about an alternative to public schooling.

At the end of the article, it referenced a series of /. articles entitled "Voices from the Hellmouth" and an online book entitled "The Underground History of American Education". Both are only available as either online web sites or as a printed book buyable (obscurely) from Amazon. No PDFs or CC-licensed downloadable copies, unfortunately.

If any of these writings can convince anyone that my learning problems are real; if any of these writings can convince someone to put real effort into changing the system; if even just one person can be rescued from the illusion that it is him/herself that's at fault instead of the system....

All I ask is please, don't tell me I'm not trying hard enough without at least trying to understand me first. The social pressures to conform pushed two human beings, having been pushed beforehand into insanity, into killing thirteen and wounding hundreds. Not videogames. I feel for them all, victims and gunmen, though I'd never do something like it; I just don't have the guts.

I'd been gutted already.


Posted at 11:37:12 pm by ferdikom98
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there is no SpyGlass(inc).

Beautiful business move. Just beautiful

Ever clicked on MSIE's help\about menu? If so, then have you ever wondered who Spyglass, Inc. is? Then check out this Wikipedia article. Yes, there is a spyglass, and in fact it was set up by the governors of the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign to capitalise on the commercial success of the Web way back in the early '90s. It was subsuquently killed by Micro$oft. Very sweet.

You gotta admire Bill's business acumen. Damn. Very sweet. Remind me never to tackle Microsoft's businesss without an army of consultants.

I found it while reading up Wikipedia on the origins of the World Wide Web. And after doing so I must hurry and fix my statement I made in my TKA that Mosaic was Open Source when in fact it was not. Microsoft contacted Spyglass for licensing. And look at what happened to Spyglass. And Netscape. And Linux if We the Community are not careful enough.


Posted at 2:31:11 pm by ferdikom98
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12/18/2004
brilliance(?)...

A point I've always tried to make to myself is that I am part of a community of human beings which survive by relying on each other. By helping each other. I've had the above word thrown at me several times, and I sincerely would love to actually be able to believe it.

Its not important wether I do or not. What is more important is that my thoughts are going to waste.

The world is such a neo-capitalistic lard-soup-paste that indigeneous Dayaks in the middle of Borneo are hurt everyday by this over-Borg-ian need of Machinima-Economica to rule so completely all the way to our very breath-processes. You either become a screw of Capitalism™, or you get screwed.

I'm screwed™.

I don't have marketable skills. I don't have a college degree. I don't have a million Dollar$. I can't follow a system through. All because my mind (and therefore essentially I) love to wonder.

But I can't give up. At least not until the 20th.

BIG BOY! BIG BOY! BIG BOY! i GOtta BE a BIG BOY! BIG BOY! BIG BOY!


Posted at 12:10:25 pm by ferdikom98
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12/17/2004
at the edge

Here's the latest version of the piece of paper which people says would facilitate my escape from this mental institution I'm currently living in.

tka v0.4 wracked.doc

Its still far from being 'layak sidang' (admissable for academic defense), but its closer then I've ever been. Let's see wether I live or not...

Oh and on other news, the gigantic two-page New York Times advertisement is up. Here's the official press release from the Mozilla Foundation. I personally like the design very much....

Firefox 1.0 NYT Ad

Posted at 10:19:50 am by ferdikom98
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12/7/2004
the death cry of an almost dropout, part II

What is the Gift of Writing? Why would someone be expected to be able to form concepts into clear written language? What is this segregation imposed upon those that cannot form words consistent with a structured norm?

What are words?

What is a paper?

Why can't I write one?

It is silly for me to be able to bore my friends to death speaking about Free Software and then go on to say that I cannot write a paper outlining a plan to promote Free Software. I totally agree. Why am I silly?

Help.


Posted at 5:29:12 pm by ferdikom98
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the death cry of an almost dropout

tka_v0.3_blurbs.doc

This is only chapter 1. Half of it, that is. There's no IMC plan to speak of. (Yet). The completed plan, as my graduation paper must be done on the 15th.

I have serious doubts about my skill as a marketer

Help.


Posted at 12:53:37 pm by ferdikom98
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12/5/2004
meditative lyrics

hmm-mm-mm... hmm-mm-mm...
hmm-mm-mm... hmm-mm-mm...

And the sign said long haired freaky people need not apply.
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And the sign said long haired freaky people need not apply.
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And the sign said long haired freaky people need not apply.
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hmm-mm-mm... hmm-mm-mm...

Don't Let The Man.
Fatboy Slim
from the Album 'Palookaville'

I'm gonna cut my hair. Not!
BTW get the album if you want, its nice enough:)


Posted at 7:40:28 pm by ferdikom98
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12/4/2004
mono/Dia

Your purpose is to the embetterment of man. The embertterment of man is about action. Your action must bring goodness to the world. Work is hard, even torcherous. But you must bring the embetterment of man.

But my Lord, is the embetterment of man always in line with Your purpose? What is the ultimate embetterment of Man? How is it that Man can become Divine? Is divinity the ultimate embetterment of Man?

So many questions. You have begun your journey into your seeking for me. You have travelled, but no more than to take the first few steps of a quintizillion. Infinity is my distance, but you are making progress. Questions cannot be answered by your seeking rest, for your journey is forever long.

But that cannot be, Lord. I only live but for a lifetime. Surely my lifetime is not an infinite number of years? How will I answer the Question before I reach my Zenith?

(death)

You seek the answer to your Question. Your answer lies ahead. Live. Persevere.

(Do less and I will personally Smite you.)


Posted at 9:26:08 pm by ferdikom98
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power compression

I would like to take this opportunity to promote Power Archiver 9.0.

It may seem strange that I am promoting a proprietary software (albeit shareware), but I just have to because it truly does match and even beats WinZip. Its not that I hate WinZip or anything, I mean I've been using it ever since I switched to Windows 3.1 way back when I was still in junior high. WinZip has served its purpose admirably, albeit at the cost of PkZip's (at the time) main source of income.

And that was how WinZip got its life. Anybody who's been using computers long enough would remember that WinZip was just a graphical frontend for PKWare's PKZip and PKUnZip when it was first released. And then few versions later it built its own internal full-fledged compression engine thus making PKWare's executable unnecesary in Windows. The funny thing is PKWare itself began life by allegedly hijacking a compression algoritm that was generally presumed to be free knowledge in the public domain.

Few outside of the enthusiast PC-user community would remember, but there was a bit of an uproar in the software industry during the early eighties when a company named Unisys patented the LZW compression algorithm (more about compression patents from faqs.org). Back before Unisys patented the algorithm it was generally thought by the general programming community that LZW cannot be patented since the authors disclosed all the technical details of the algorithm to the general public at 1977. But the patent application was granted, and Unisys licensed it to Compuserve for the creation of the GIF format, and then to PKWare to create the ZIP format.

Fortunately the LZW was only a variation of an algorithm. Abraham Lempel and Jacob Ziv disclosed the LZ77 algorithm to the world in 1977. Variations of that algorithm can be found easily by googling LZW or LZ77. Anyway as history goes there was a backlash from the Free Software community to the patent. InfoZip was created, and also GnuZip (its extension is .gz). Other mathematicians tried improving the old algorithm. A result that was popular among the open source community was the BZip2 algorithm (with the extension .bz2).

I had discovered BZip2 while examining my Fedora 2 installation and noticed that for documentation that was both packaged in .zip, .gzip, and .bz2, the .bz2 archive was noticeably smaller while the .zip was significantly bigger. I searched for a utility to create and open bz2 archives, and what I discovered was the already mentioned InfoZip, the LZW patent, its connection to the various Bzip2 sites, various nitpicks, and finally the fact that Power Archiver 9.0 can do compression and decompression of .bz2 files.

Not only Bzip2, Power Archiver also natively handles GZip, traditional Zip, both WinZip's and PKZip's proprietary Zip extensions, .tgz (GZipped Tarballs), tbz2 (BZipped Tarballs), even RARs. But the coup-de-gracé, if one would say is its default compression format, which compresses even better than BZip2, called 7z. Now 7Zip is an open source compression format developed by Igor Pavlov for his 7Zip compression utility. Apparently he made an even more optimized version of the LZ77 algorithm for use in his 7Zip program. There are efforts at transferring the algorithm to the Free/Open Source Software world, but it was somewhat hindered because of Pavlov's uses of some proprietary Windows C++ hooks in his source code. But there is some progress being made; they're not quite done yet but its getting very close.

So right now the best widely available compression utility with the best compression ratio is fully available in Windows, but it doesn't make market penetration because of WinZip's very big brand identity. And of course, as usual, constructive laziness;)


Posted at 1:01:40 pm by ferdikom98
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12/3/2004
denial pt.2

This is life, there's always pressure.
If you're not feeling pressure then you're not alive.

It is wrong to give up before you fight.
You give up before you fight and you might as well die.

note: I discovered just now that I had hit 'Save Draft' instead o Publish; sorry to appear to fool anyone but I did actually write this at the time indicated...


Posted at 9:26:55 pm by ferdikom98
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I don't write intellectually. I write expressively. I don't claim to be accurate, fair or thorough. I don't wanna get stuck on certain topics. Though I sometimes do. But not that often. I'd like to expand. I wanna write more poems. But I'll only upload them if they're good. I only rant about my life's hardships if it will rescue just a little bit of my sanity. I'm saner than I make myself out to be, though.

If I am an OS kernel, and I just had a kernel dump, I'd imagine that the text in this blog is what it would more or less look like.

There. Do you get it?

   

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